Happy Hopes

Happy Hopes
 by Jordan Brooks
Nov. 18, 2016.


Rebels against authority,
 making inside jokes against conformity,
 twenty-four years old,
 at ends with the man, more than a few times;

I'm not sure if I had committed to intending to say hi,
 when somehow we met,
 I'm just some boy that's nearby;
 maybe she just sees a boy with wide eyes.

Tells me she's been thinking that I'm unlike most guys,
 her best friend,
 a guy she admires,
 like because she just feels connected somehow.

And as we talk,
 we find in each other,
 emotional maturities,
 levels and real growths,

and we share the bed,
 it's still the rush, and in it, I've happy hopes
 Day is sweet.
 Night is sweet(er).

Then one day it ends: she can't see me anymore.
 it's not personal:
 it's just that it can't get that way.
 I see her inside-joke ,

rebels against authority,
 and now, she rebels against me,
 her pretty story,
 she gets her way,

then runs away,
 and then love is the fairytale,
 it seems.

Jordan.